Phantom Pain

A song by The Mission. I heard it a few days back and it hit me so hard I am still thinking about it. It is a strange song. It is an impossible song.

Lyrics:

Phantom Pain, by The Mission

I think I should go back on the chemicals again
Everything I do feels so tedious and mundane
I have everything I've ever wanted so I don't know why
Sometimes there are days when all I wanna do is die

There is no logic to my way of fucked up thinking
I'm a drift on the sea of apathy and I'm sinking
Every conversation I have feels so inane
How have I become so blasé and numb to pleasure or pain

Sometimes it feels like the Night will never end
Sometimes it feels like Despair is my only friend
Sometimes when the Sky is blue all I feel is rain
Sometimes I feel nothing at all but Phantom pain
Phantom pain

It's a dark road I take, crossing Rubicon
Just like Leda I lay in the embrace of the unholy Swan
Can't put a brave face on my inertia any longer
I can't live this masquerade, no more

Sometimes it feels like the Night will never end
Sometimes it feels like Darkness is my only friend
Sometimes when the Sky is blue all I feel is rain
Sometimes I feel nothing at all but Phantom pain
Phantom pain

Sometimes I feel nothing at all but Phantom pain

Sometimes I feel nothing at all but Phantom pain...